Things that touch my heart, soul and mind

♥

2012-01-14T22:52:00.001+08:00

Life is short.

There is never enough time to do the things you want to do.
There is never enough time to explore the places you want to visit.
There is never enough time to get to know the people you befriended.
There is never enough time to be the person you want to be.
There is just so much to learn, to relearn and to unlearn.

Time is precious,
Life is a gem.
You taught me that.

And now, I know better that life is beautiful, no matter how brief it is, no matter how hard it may be.
It is a gift, and in this lifetime I'm learning to appreciate it.

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Blank

2011-12-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I feel restless and anxious. I feel as though I have forgotten to do something (important). I don't know why I can't sit back, relax and enjoy the rest of the year (17 days left till we usher in yet another new year). I want time to slow down. I want time to stretch.

I want to do so many things, but I know I can't do everything. What do You want me to do with my life?

Crossroads. Uncertainties. I'm not afraid. I'm not worried. I'm just unsure.

Start Over

2011-11-10T13:28:00.000+08:00

If you could start all over again, would you?

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Just a dream

2011-11-03T11:33:00.002+08:00

Oh, hello!

2011-11-01T13:13:00.001+08:00

I would love to visit this island someday; Langkawi 2011

Goodbye October, hello November! It's the second last month of 2011, can you believe it? This year seems to be wrapping up pretty quickly and I am getting excited for the future. This year has passed by so fast it feels as though life has been on a fast forward mode.

October has been a fairly good month. It started with a mini family vacation to Penang and Langkawi and the rest of the month was mainly catching up on work. I've been pretty occupied with completing my thesis and I really cannot wait to be done with it. But thankfully, thesis isn't as dreadful as I thought it would be in the beginning. :)

Meanwhile, I've also been pondering a lot about my future. I'm not worried about it but I'm seeking. As of now, I can list down many many things that I want to do and venture into but remain I uncertain. Do I really want to continue studying? Do I really want to start working so soon? Well... I'll have to pray and think about that.

I foresee that this is going to be a very busy month and before I know it it'll be December! Anyway, here is to a good start and a good month ahead!

Sometimes

2011-10-18T11:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes all you really need to do is to clear your head.

One word: Vote!

2011-09-17T12:51:00.001+08:00

For more info about the video, please go to : www.undilah.com

If you're a Malaysian, aged 21 & above, and if you love this country Malaysia, please register and vote. I think that's the very least we can do for our country.

Some say they'll register but won't vote. Some say they won't vote, so why register? But I think it's time to reflect about the things that has been happening in our country. Some say they don't think their votes matter, so why bother? Others say it (things that are happening) doesn't bother them, so why bother?

But every time the price of petrol increases, people complain. When they get stuck in a horrible traffic jam, people complain. When the bus is late, people complain. When the KTM or LRT breaks down, people complain. When the Government suggested to switch teaching maths and science to English, people complain. And when they want to switch it back to Bahasa Malaysia, they complain yet again. We are bothered in so many ways but we only end up complaining. Talk is cheap.

It's time to stop complaining. It's time to act. I don't know about you, but I'm sure it's worth a try. We all want a better future anyway, so why not?

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What coffee does to you

2011-09-09T10:03:00.000+08:00

Coffee makes me feel funny. It makes me nervous. Sometimes my hands shiver and my palms sweat. I feel a little boost of energy running through my veins and through my brain. Then I feel inspired, but it is all short-lived.

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How do you resist doing something that you want but know that it may be bad for you? How do you resist asking questions that would change your future completely? Is curiosity really a bad thing?

I need time.

Will you give it to me please?

*It's not easy waking up every morning only to feel your heart breaking.

I wrote that almost exactly three years ago but never published it. Oh boy, am I glad that I was able to get out and get through those difficult moments. It was a struggle but I dealt with it. I am happy to say that I am stronger now and much wiser. I am still eager to learn and to grow. It is wonderful to see how negative experiences in life mould you into a better person. Now all that pain and tears and confusion you felt becomes worth it after all eh?

Looking back, I can only say that God is faithful. God is real. He is always there for me even when I feel far away from Him. Even when I find it hard to reach out to Him, He never leaves me.

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Disorientated

2011-09-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

everything's a blur

Oh, hello third day of September! Blogger has just updated their interface and I'm trying it out now. Blogging feels different. Everything seems so clean and spacious in here. Hopefully this white space will help me to think more clearly when I write (dear readers, if you are not using Blogger I understand if you don't understand what I'm talking about :)).

I feel a little disorientated recently. A little unmotivated. A little uninspired. This has happened way too many times before and I don't know what I did (or did not do) to be this way. It's as though someone or something sucked life out of me. I'm not depressed. I'm no longer sick. Maybe I need more sleep and more exercise. But surprisingly the past two night has given me the best sleep I've had since only God knows when.

I've been dreaming really weird dreams this week. I don't know why I dream them. I don't know if they mean anything. But most of the time, I think I'm glad I do not know the meaning behind these dreams. Some things are better left unknown, I guess.

I have a lot of reading and writing to do. Read, write, type. I wish the days were longer. I really do.

And I think I need to pour coffee on my brain.

Have a happy weekend!

I spy with my little eye - Part Two

2011-08-25T15:49:00.001+08:00

A taste of Singapore

These are just some of the meals I had while I was there. I did not try much hawker food this time around because I spent most of my time at shopping malls. ;P I had a great time there and had good meals too. Now I'll let the pictures do the talking...

Salmon maki @ Itacho, ION Orchard

Scallop Sushi

Mixed sushi platter

the long queue after we left Itacho

something spicy, mm tom yam

Mushroom Soup! @ The Soup Spoon

MOS Burger's wagyu beef burger that was just so good and yummeh

Smoked Salmon Pizza @ Lenas, NEX Serangoon

Fried Kuey Teow with big juicy si ham @ hawker centre opposite Braddel MRT Station

Mango and pamelo dessert @ China Town

Rum & raisin + Chocolate sorbet - Green Tea + Pistachio Ice Cream @ Tom's Palette

a cute drawing at Tom's Palette @ Shaw Leisure Gallery, Beach Road

Macarons!

and last but not least Singapore Chicken Rice @ Food Opera, ION Orchard

I spy with my little eye - Part One

2011-08-16T13:11:00.002+08:00

something colourful,

something red,

something different...

and something black.

So at the end of last month, I took a bus down south to Singapore and stayed with my brother for a couple of nights till my parents came over. I still remember that within the first five minutes upon entering this neighbouring country, I was already loving it. The same strange feeling I get about that place came back. Everything is just so neat and proper. The roads are so smooth (I felt like I was gliding) and the buildings are so clean! I see greens all around me. Grass, fields, trees!

My oh my, little did I know that I would fall in love with that strange place. It's a pretty odd thing for me to say because I really wasn't fond of that place back in 2007. However, I did not have much (negative) comments in 2009 and now 2011 - I tripped and somehow fell in love. Haha. I shall post more pictures in the next post. :)

to you, my friend

2011-07-26T00:46:00.004+08:00

the sunrise we caught together

To my dear friend Captain Tian Yu (better known as Penyu),

My heart aches whenever I think of you. I still can't believe that you are gone. I see people writing things on your wall now. Some made me cry, some made me smile. You lived a good life and you are in a much better place than all of us here right now.

I miss the conversations we had. It was always a joy talking to you. I miss the walks we had back from school too. I think my best memory with you has to be the time we tried to catch the sunrise at G-hill near our home. I woke up late and you were already waiting for me outside when I got up. I remember that I was panting all the way up. You kept asking if I was alright and I told you to roll me down the hill if I ever fainted. Those were the good times.

I might never get to know why you have to go so soon. I guess I'll just have to wait till the day I see you again.

My dear friend, thanks for the memories!

thank God for holidays

2011-07-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

photo by one love photo via Snippet & Ink

Holidays are for having fun. So, I'll be taking a week off to enjoy this strange land that I am in. Today I found out that I actually enjoy travelling alone. Being with only myself doesn't seem so lonely after all though the journey wasn't too long. It was just nice. And by the way it sure is good to be starting the week with the weekend and I hope it only gets better. Till then, I hope you'll have a great weekend and a fabulous week ahead!

take on life

2011-07-18T11:56:00.003+08:00

Have you ever wondered how to save yourself from disappointments? Won't it be great if you knew how to because it would save you a lot of hurt and heartaches as well? Some say having low expectations will save you from disappointments and then you'll be happy. But where will low expectations bring you in life? Will you ever be contented with life?

Life has been good to me, I don't deny that. But it has its fair share of joy and sadness as well. But I don't think I would need to know how to save myself from disappointments. What I need is to learn how to deal with them properly. I can't go through life avoiding things only to keep myself safe. I'll never learn that way.

God has been teaching me a lot this year through the things that has happened and I'm not sure if I know how to digest all of it in and not feel overwhelmed by it. I guess it will take some time.

to the moon and back

2011-07-14T18:05:00.002+08:00

i like to look at dolphins because it looks like they are always smiling :)

The start of July has been quite a busy one. It start off with Copa IBA, a sports tournament where my youth from church took part in Captain Ball. Then came study break and I had some random meet ups with friends in between. Now, after I've completed my last and final paper on Monday, I'm on holidays. :) Well, I have to work on my thesis, yes I have to work on my thesis. Meanwhile, I'm also considering doing a Masters programme. Should I? Should I not? I don't know. I wish I could just flip a coin and decide but it isn't that simple.

I've been writing and blogging less and less now. I haven't been feeling that inspired lately. I hope it to get out of this soon though. And I'm looking forward to a better weekend!

Friendships

2011-06-29T11:48:00.001+08:00

I have been thinking quite a bit lately about what it means to be a friend. And today, I saw this picture in tumblr and thought to myself, "So true..." Sometimes, as a normal human being I tend to lose focus on what it means to be a friend. Being a friend isn't about me. Being a friend means genuinely caring for the other person.

But then again, there are times when you get tired of caring and caring and not getting the care back in return. Sometimes, you might think why are you the only one putting effort into this friendship? Why doesn't the other person initiate anything? Why doesn't he/she care? This state is the most dangerous state of mind because here you tend to blur things between reality and your assumptions. I don't have a solution for this but always be the friend you want to have. And if your friend really doesn't care much about the friendship, you will know eventually.

What does being a friend mean to you? I'd like to know! :)

little delights

2011-06-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

I know the picture above has nothing to do with anything I am about to write below but I love cats. They are just so adorable. I find myself especially attracted to fat ones too. If I could I would love to have one to keep and call my own.

I took a short break from blogging because I honestly just ran dry. Nothing seemed to have inspired me to write last week. Nonetheless, it has been a good week. My brother came home for about a week plus. It's nice to have someone to talk to, play with and laugh with (while watching Community) at home. And it's sure nice to have the whole family together again. :)

happy family

On father's day we attended SIBKL for church service and they had a photo booth set up outside of the sanctuary for families to take their picture. It was a really cute and meaningful idea. You could take a picture with your dad or with the whole family. They used a Fujifilm Instax Mini 7 camera, so we could get our photo immediately. The best I can show you is just the blurry picture of the photo because my scanner isn't working.

The start of this week has been filled with much running and perspiring while playing captain ball. My church youth will be attending in Copa IBA 2011 and taking part in captain ball this Saturday. Honestly, I'm excited and this might also be my last year playing for the competition. I haven't been playing as much as I would like on a weekly basis but I hope even after this Saturday I'll be playing on Sundays more regularly.

Ah, I can't believe that this is the last week of semester already! It feels like everything just zoomed me by.

Anyway here's to a good last week of classes! :)

Last Week

2011-06-17T14:57:00.002+08:00

It's that time of the month again, when one just gets irrationally emotional for no reason or for reasons she doesn't want to know.

You have become a stranger. It's strange how friends can turn into strangers. After not meeting for some time now, you wonder if that person is still the same person he was back when you were younger. Then, you were in primary school and everything was great. You had great conversations, made jokes that cracked each other up and a just wonderful time being classmates. You knew his personality so well. You trusted him. But then as years go by, the both of you grew apart and then you wonder if you can still trust him like you used to.

Sad, but true. I guess life is like that. Ain't it?

Then there are others who grew apart as well, but when you meet again occasionally, it feels as though nothing's changed. You still can talk with each other without any awkwardness and make jokes that still crack each other up. And deep down, you still trust each other. You learn to befriend each other again. Ah, here I am again writing the things that goes through my mind, looking for a place to pour out my emotions.

by and by

2011-06-10T17:33:00.001+08:00

“Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone.

Forgive as the Lord forgave you.”

-Colossians 3:13

Conversations

2011-06-07T11:21:00.002+08:00

Do you work conversations out in your head? I do. I have them all worked out (though not all the time) and then I play them in my head. Maybe that's where my headache is coming from. Making conversations up in your head is good only because they sound like how you want them to sound. But that's not how life works. You are not the center of the universe. You can't control how other people will react to what you say. You can only control what you say. Maybe I should be a scriptwriter and write out all the conversations I have in my head and make it into a movie. Then, I'll be happy...because the movie turned out exactly the way I wanted it to.

Majesty

2011-06-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

Majesty, worship His majesty

Unto Jesus, be all glory

Power and praise

Majesty, kingdom authority

Flow from His throne

Unto His own, His anthem raise

So exalt, lift up on high

The Name of Jesus

Magnify, come glorify

Christ Jesus the King

Majesty, worship His majesty

Jesus who died, now glorified

King of all kings

- Jack Hayford

Depth

2011-06-01T20:25:00.003+08:00

by RoseAndRaven

It's the month of June! New month, new things, new goals. I think that this month is going to be pretty exciting. I can't believe that almost half the year is already gone. Fast forward and it'll be December! If I could start this year all over again, I would. There are things that I would like to have been better at, especially academically. But to think of going through all the pain again, I'm glad it's over now and I made it through. One cannot cry over spilled milk anyway, right?

Then end of last month proved to be a good one. I took some time to ponder upon my relationship with God and it dawned upon me that I have been a 'touch n go' Christian lately. I do my quiet time almost everyday but I don't do it because I want to spend time with God. Yes, I do it because I want to learn, but not to fellowship. Just look at what I've been missing out on.

Recently, I read an article online and the writer mentioned that "God isn't a vending machine". That sentence struck me. It's true how many times Christians tend to treat God as a vending machine or a genie in a bottle. You slot the coin (prayer/s) in, and ta-daaa, the can (answered prayer) drops out. I'm sure God wants to bless you and answer your prayers if it is good for you but we should not treat God that way. I know I tend to do so. Oh, what shallow mindset I have. It's time to change my perspective and really understand who God is.

I've been spending some time on Etsy when I'm free. Oh, I could get lost in that site. I'll leave you with some of the things that caught my eye. ;)

by RoseAndRaven

by tinatarnoff

by isidro

by PatrickIrlaJewelry

my Creator

2011-05-28T22:14:00.001+08:00

5th November 2010

In the beginning

God created the

heavens and the earth.

Genesis 1:1

Today on the way back home from youth group, Yee Ling and I saw a very beautiful sunset. To me, it was the most amazing sunset I've ever seen in my entire life and I wondered how can anyone say that there is no God? I know I can't. Sadly, I couldn't take any photo of the sunset because I was driving. But some parts of it was something like the picture above and other parts of it were rich majestic orange that reflected upon the clouds. It was a marvelous sight and I would forever remember it.

That sunset proved God's love to me. It showed how majestic and magnificent He is. It showed that He is my Creator and I adore him. I don't know what I am suppose to do with my life. I'm not sure which path I should take. But I know that I need not fear as long as I have God with me and I just have to trust in Him. I'm growing and learning as I seek God to lead me in each step that I take. Life is never a smooth sailing journey, but with God in our lives, we can always make it through the storms.

Toothless

2011-05-24T15:02:00.000+08:00

So the holidays are gone. The first week of May semester has come and gone too. Here's a little update of all the movies I've watched during the past holidays. I watch 10 in total and I'm gonna list them according to those I liked and enjoyed best. :)

Million Dollar Baby
How to Train Your Dragon
The Blind Side
Freedom Writers
Tangled
Waters for Elephants
Anger Management
Despicable Me
Valentine's Day
Burlesque

I think the storyline of any movie is very important to me and I must say 'How to Train Your Dragon' has been one of the best animated film I've watch recently. Heh, my brother was right. It was good. I wonder if my brother is such a big influence(r) in my life. I think he is.

Well I'm missing the holidays now. I itch to be free from workload and thesis... especially thesis. But that is not gonna happen anytime soon. Well, it's the last year of being a student. Have to enjoy it while it lasts.

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Stranger

2011-05-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

If I could I would go to a foreign land. And in the streets that I will walk along, I am no one; no one but a stranger. It will be a whole new dimension. A whole new world. A whole new adventure.

Oh, if I could, I would.

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pocket full of sunshine

2011-05-16T15:50:00.003+08:00

I woke up with a big smile on my face this morning. If I had a little miss sunshine t-shirt I would wear it and my rays will blind your eyes. That was how happy I was. But how long will this joy last? Will it be short-lived or will it last forever? I don't know. Either way, I am happy now.

Morning drive to class was a breeze and the radio played my current favourite song too. First day of class went alright. We haven't started lessons yet. This semester I'll have to get used to waking up at 6.20a.m. for 8a.m. classes again.

I felt like nothing could go wrong today because it was my day. So far, so good. To make things happier, today I collected my limited edition Coca-Cola glass collection from McDonald's. I joined a contest last month and I finally got them. Mm, I don't think I would ever stop drinking Coke. Here's to 125 years of refreshing moments!

Closure

2011-05-11T11:11:00.001+08:00

It's funny how I can find closure in my dreams. Peace, I felt at peace with you and with myself. But, that was in the dream and I hope that it will translate into reality soon enough. Perhaps it's already on its way . I dream about the weirdest, oddest thing ever possible that might not ever happen in real life or at least in my life; like getting a tattoo (and it hurt like how it supposed to hurt). I wonder if my dreams reflect my wants and desires in real life. Everything I want but do not have and can not get, I dream it. But apart from that, I also dream about my fears and insecurities.

Holidays are coming to an end. So far I've cleaned my study, am in the process of cleaning my room, watched seven movies and gonna catch another later with some friends, gained some weight (celebrate!), did some shopping (could do a bit more), did some cooking but haven't touched reading. Mmm, so that is what's missing. Weather has been murderously hot in the afternoons and evenings (35*C & 36*C) but I thank God for the rain that He's sprinkled down for the past two nights!

Happy midweek, everyone!

Awakening

2011-05-09T20:14:00.004+08:00

You know you're in Penang when you see Komtar, the tallest building there. There is just something about Penang that I really like. I can't really point out what it is but I think it's the mixture of everything in that small island. I like the old buildings, the hills, the seaside and the busyness of the town. Well, I'll let the pictures do more of the talking.

our home for three days

the view from my room

my bed in the hall :)

On Tuesday, mum and I visited Khoo Kongsi. Being there reminded me much of China. The architecture - beautiful, so detailed and elaborate.

After that, we headed over to Kek Lok Si temple before having a delicious bowl of Asam Laksa at Ayer Itam.

famous Ayer Itam Asam Laksa

After lunch, we took the public bus back to Komtar and I was still feeling hungry. So mum brought me to Kek Seng coffee shop and I had another bowl of Asam Laksa. :) Oh, joy! If only I can so easily get Asam Laksa back here in KL.

In the evening, dad brought us out for dinner. First we had prawn mee at a stall near by our hotel before heading to the hawker centre at New Lane.

On Wednesday, we packed up and made our way further up north to Alor Setar, Kedah. There, we stayed at my uncle's place and it was relaxing three days of eating, watching tv and movies, eating, shopping and visiting other relatives. :) Oh, and there I got myself another bowl Asam Laksa again. Boy, I should really learn to cook this myself.

So, this is briefly what I've been up to during the past week. This is my second and final week of holidays. I really wish it was longer. Here's to a good week! :)

Daydream

2011-04-27T20:33:00.003+08:00

is this a dream?

So here is the start of the short holidays. Eighteen days to be exact. Today, I caught myself daydreaming; listening to Taylor Swift while driving, thinking about the dumbest, sweetest thing possible. But ah, it is just a thought in my pretty little head. Oh boy, its just a thought.

This holiday is gonna be full of movies. I have much to catch up on. Perhaps this holiday I can take some time to ponder and reflect on life - my life. What are my wishes, my wants, my desires? What is God telling me? Am I even listening? In the midst of all the reflecting, I do hope to get good rest from all the studying and academic stuff. So here's to a wonderful holiday! Dear you reading this, take care! :)

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gratitude

2011-04-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

I can finally study at ease now. No more quizzes, no more papers to write, no more websites to design and no more presentations. Today was the last of everything. And today I truly thank God - for He is my Saviour and my source of strength, that I actually did quite well for Advertising so far. It's been a rough and tough journey (yes, taking Advertising has been quite a journey). Having failed my first two quizzes that really dampened my confidence but in the end I managed to bounce back again with the third and forth quiz and extra credit quiz. Thank God for extra credit quiz!

Lunch today was rather interesting too. It wasn't planned. At least not by me. But having random conversations with friends can bring one much joy. I don't think I've laughed this much for a long time now. I feel free, I feel fine. Mm, aren't friends just one of life's greatest blessings?

Hopefully, the next time I post anything up here it will be after exams and that would be the end to this semester. Time to focus and keep on fighting!

Dreams

2011-04-17T17:39:00.001+08:00

I dream almost every night and last night was no different. Some dreams are nice and sweet but there are others that paralyzes you with fear, reminding you of emotions you no longer want to feel and remember for the rest of your life. But most of the time they just leave me in a confused state of mind when I finally wake up.

I started dreaming at a very young age. One of my earliest memory I have is a dream about a red firetruck. Ever since I was 14 years old, I noticed that I dream almost every single night. The only times I don't dream is when I am really exhausted from something really strenuous like returning from a youth camp or something alike.

Even when I take naps in the afternoon, I dream. My mind is constantly active. It doesn't rest. I must be a genius or a really mentally tired person. But I believe the latter isn't true. A couple of years back, when I was ~~somewhat depressed~~ really really sad, I would just drift through the day looking forward to the night time to sleep and dream. I look forward to sleeping and dreaming because I wanted to escape reality. When I am asleep and dreaming, I don't feel the emotions I felt throughout the day. I just drift off to another dimension (in my mind) forgetting everything.

But now, I am not sad or depressed. I just look forward to a pleasant sleep at night. I know that the dreams will come along. However, whether it was a nice dream or a bad one, when I finally wake up from it I can always say, "Ah, it was only a dream."

Travis - Turn

2011-04-15T23:40:00.001+08:00

I want to see what people saw
I want to feel like I felt before
I'd like to see the kingdom come
I want to feel forever young

I want to sing
To sing my song
I want to live in a world where I belong
I want to live
I will survive
And I believe that it won't be very long
If we turn, turn, turn, turn, turn
Then we might learn

So where's the stars?
Up in the sky
And what's the moon?
A big balloon
We'll never know unless we grow
There's so much world outside the door

I want to sing
To sing my song
I want to live in a world where I'll be strong
I want to live
I will survive
And I believe that it won't be very long
If we turn, turn, turn, turn, turn

And if we turn, turn, turn, turn
Then we might learn
Turn, turn, turn, turn
Turn, turn, turn
And if we turn, turn, turn, turn
Then we might learn
Learn to turn

Track written by Fran Healy

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it's true

2011-04-12T20:10:00.003+08:00

Today I had a hair cut. It still smells so good from the shampoo they used.
Today I noticed that the LRT stations and the trains do not have a 'No Animals/Pets Allowed' sign. I noticed this because I saw a man who brought his white little dog up into the train. But of course the dog was in a cage.
Today my lecturer told me some really relieving news. He said that he actually enjoyed reading my paper. *phew*
I've been having very weird random cravings lately. Surfing through Tumblr when hungry is not a good idea.
I thank God for answered prayers.
I often wonder about the future and think how it's all gonna be like.
Today I learn that for every bad thing that happens to you, there is always a good side to it.
I know I need to seek deeper. I need to feel inspired again.
Today, I thank God for life!

Precious jewels

2011-04-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

I thank God for each and every one of them.

Stephie, I wish you were here with us.

103rd minute

2011-04-08T12:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I wrote this down:

This morning I felt terrible. After losing my patience on the road, it dawned upon me what a horrible person I was. I guess driving brings out the true colours in you, eh? Or perhaps driving makes you a monster (but then again, maybe it's just me). Driving tests your patience and when you meet another inconsiderate fellow driver along the way, you blow.

I haven't been like this for a very very long time now. I thought I finally grew out of it. But I got so annoyed at a road hogger this morning and he was so oblivious towards his surrounding. I was thinking to myself, "Why do you want to be a road hogger when we are already stuck in a jam?! Couldn't you just drive like everyone else and help ease the situation?" Well, he couldn't. He did not only do it to me, he did it to other cars too when he changed his lane. Perhaps he was lost, but leaving two cars spaces in front of you is ridiculous.

Losing my temper made me feel sad. But then I realised that I haven't felt sad for some time now which is good.

Oh, I have to really learn to be more patient on the road.

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Julie & Julia

2011-04-01T17:41:00.014+08:00

Julia Child

So when it is 35°C on a lazy Friday afternoon, what do you do? I took a break from journal hunting and printing articles out and thought that I should watch Julie and Julia (again). Now if you haven't already watched it, you really should. I could watch this over and over again. I really could. I just finished reading the book last Sunday and I have been wanting to do this for so long now - to find Julie's real blog when she started the Julie/Julia Project and today, I Googled it up and found it. Joy! Ok, I maybe obsessed, a little, but there's just something inspiring about this whole Julie/Julia thing.

Julie Powell, had no clue what to do with her life and so she picked up the challenge to cook through 524 recipes in 365 days and she did it. She cooked through Mastering the Art of French Cooking (MtAoFC) by Julia Child. In the blog she wrote 536 recipes, but in the book and the movie only 524. Anyway, this is the link: http://blogs.salon.com/0001399/2002/08/25.html I think it'll be even better than the book, to be able to read what her original posts were.

I'm not a fan of cooking and never was. I don't dislike it. I just don't do it. My mum is an excellent cook and it seems like such a waste if I do not pick it up. I'm (turning) 22 this year, time to accomplish something for once? I wonder if I will ever pick up my own project. It might not be a bad idea at all. Perhaps one day I would make my very own Boeuf Bourguignon.

pictures found here and here

Reasons

2011-03-30T20:54:00.002+08:00

Why? I keep asking why. None of your reasons or explanations seem to make sense to me. I can't comprehend them. I always wonder what happened, what changed. I want to forgive. I want to forgive fully. I don't think I've reached that point yet but I'm trying. Sometimes, I still feel as though my heart has been butchered. The pain feels so raw. I feel exposed. But most of the time now, I feel fine.

God has been answering my prayers speedily these two days. Yesterday, even before I could finished uttering my prayer - He answered it. Last night, I told Him that I didn't want to wake up vomiting gastric juice like I've been for the past two days. This morning I woke up fine. I've been feeling stressed lately due to studies. But I don't feel so uptight now. I think the stress is going away, slowly.

On a totally different note, I've drank 4725ml of Coca-Cola this year. :)

Good night and happy mid-week!

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Break Away

2011-03-27T17:54:00.004+08:00

the cat i saw in Malacca today. love its green eyes.

The past two weeks have been such a toll on my emotions but I thank God that I regained my appetite after the first week and that I had no trouble sleeping. The ache felt heavier than it was painful. I struggled during the first few days. This whole experience has thought me a lot. Out of the many lessons, it has thought me about how my actions can affect another person so much, so badly and sometimes I don't realise it. Now I know how some of my actions in the past almost killed you (Not literally, but most probably emotionally).

I am trying to see the good in all that has happened. And then there's you. You try your best to do everything you can to make sure I'm alright. Whether you know it or not, I appreciate it with all my heart. Though you may think that it isn't much, it made a lot of difference. This experience has been a blessing in disguise.

Waterballoons

2011-03-23T21:34:00.002+08:00

It makes me laugh every time I watch it. I wouldn't mind playing this again! :)

And if you look at the scenery behind us, you would see Bukit Tabur - East and West.

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Sprinkles

2011-03-22T11:15:00.002+08:00

I woke up early this morning only to find out that my class has been canceled as college is closed from 12p.m. onwards today because our Chancellor and Chairperson has passed away. This means that I don't have class today and won't have class till Thursday.

It rained when I woke up. It's still is raining though only light sprinkles now. After breakfast as I was watching the rain from my kitchen window, I realised that I am liking the rain more and more now. I used to be a person who would get moody when the weather is gloomy and when it rains. But now, when it rains, I'm happy. This weather somehow reminded me of my time in London. Grey skies, cold weather.

Watching the rain from my kitchen window today reminded me of something I saw last Saturday. It's been a wet March and it was raining last Saturday too. I was standing in the same spot washing the dishes. I peered out of the window and I saw my neighbour carrying his 3 year old daughter in one arm and a golf umbrella in the other. The umbrella was so huge it was big enough to shield the both of them to the car. He did the same with his older daughter as well. When I saw that, I went 'aww'. My heart melted at the sight of a father's love. Later on he shielded his wife too.

Hehee.. the joy of having the kitchen in the front part of your house.

♥

a fresh s(tart)!

2011-03-20T17:22:00.003+08:00

mini fruit tarts. oh joy!

"If one day I become sad, feel down and low, I shall reread this post and be thankful because I am blessed!"

I am thankful that I wrote that not too long ago. It's a good reminder to know that my friends are indeed better than silver or gold. I don't have to think it. I don't have to imagine it. I know it because it is true and writing that has been the best reminder I could ever ask for the past week.

It's a new week! I'm still struggling with my Advertising paper. Oh, the life of a student! But I am happy, at least I am happy now. :) Here's a good week ahead. Much love.

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Move Along

2011-03-17T18:42:00.000+08:00

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
- The All-American Rejects

So when life throws you a pie, what do you do? Eat it? Dodge it? Or wait for it to smash right into your pretty little face? I would love to eat it, I'm hungry now and it's free anyway. But my point is, when life suddenly turns sour, or when you face heartbreaks, disappointments and confusion - what do you do? Well, I choose to move along.

I know saying "move along" is easier said than done. But it is true and you'll never know how true it is until you actually do move along. Ah, I feel like all these positivity just dropped from heaven unto me. It's funny how this week has turned out. Again and again I'm thankful for my loving family and friends.

God is good, all the time. And all the time God is good.

Better than silver or gold

2011-02-28T22:03:00.003+08:00

If there is only one thing to be thankful right at this moment, it would be my friends. These are people who have come into my life at various points of my life - when I was still a child, a teen, and now a college student. They have seen me on good days and bad days. They have always been there for me, encouraging me, correcting me and more importantly they have always accepted me for who I am. I am indeed thankful for all my friends that God has planted in my life. Just as they have been such great friends and individuals to me, I hope am one to them too. :)

Just last Friday I went down to Sunway to meet up with Ai Mie, Yuen Mei and Wen Dee for some ice-skating and catching up; just some girly girl time. I have known these girls since I was 11 years old when I started attending Grace Methodist Church and I truly miss being with them and the rest from our youth group, MYF. It's been almost 6 years since I have left but I am indeed grateful that I can still mingle, joke, and talk with them as though I have never left. Every single time when I meet up with them again, it just feels right. I feel like I belong. And I still remember our Genting trip back in 2008, that was pure joy. :)

If one day I become sad, feel down and low, I shall reread this post and be thankful because I am blessed!

Oh, February is gonna be gone in a few hours time. Time flies, doesn't it?
March, I am hoping you'll be a good month!

Wandering

2011-02-22T19:55:00.006+08:00

Some people, like Ralph Waldo Emerson says that life is a journey not a destination. But life eventually leads to a destination, right? You are always heading somewhere even if you think it's nowhere. Look back ten years, and look at where you are now. Has anything changed?

Life has been pretty mundane for me as of late, but I'm still busy as ever. Maybe I'm just not good at managing my time well enough. I slack, I procrastinate, I get nothing done. But that's gonna change, today...not tomorrow because tomorrow will always remain tomorrow.

Sometimes, I feel like a jack of all trades, master of none (but not really all trades..I'm sure you know what I mean). What do I want to do with this life that I've been given? Who do I wanna be? What do I want to achieve? I don't know.

A part of me dream of working in a big, huge media company and then there is this part of me that doesn't really want that life. Some part of me wants something simple and meaningful. But nothing is ever simple in life, is it? I don't know what I want but I know what I do not want. I don't want to sit in office on a 9 to 5 job. I don't want a 8 to 6 job (or beyond) either. I don't think I can bear sitting in office the whole day, everyday. I may be picky now but not when I'm looking for a real job. But I think I can stay in a shop the whole day. Maybe I'll go in retail, marketing, branding. Or maybe I'll join an NGO.

But the thing is... right at this moment, I don't know where I'll be, what I'll be doing. What I do know, is that I'll be getting a cheque, and hopefully soon from Nuffnang and I've decided to give that sum of money to a charity/home/organization. But I'm not sure where. My family is currently supporting a child from Thailand through World Vision. I don't have enough money to support a child on a monthly basis at the moment but I could still donate this money that I will be getting (together with my previous earnings from Nuffnang). Any of you have any suggestions? I would love to hear from you! :)

And last but not least, dear readers, thank you for reading this blog. Your views and clicks on the ads have helped me earn through Nuffnang. Thank you for reading/viewing/clicking, intentionally or unintentially. Let's hope this contribution will be for a greater good.

Love & Life

2011-02-16T23:56:00.001+08:00

Valentine’s oh Valentines. It left many people with sweet memories and it left the others wondering when would be their turn to celebrate this occasion; some hopeful, some clueless. Three days before Valentine’s Day and Facebook and Twitter were already filled with V-day related post and I couldn’t help but to stumble upon them. So, I took some time to ponder on Valentine’s I obviously could not help but to ponder about love. “What is love?”, “Who loves me?”, “What is it to love...?”, “Am I loving (enough)?”.

Then I thought about the One who loved me the most, the lover of my life and my soul; God. God loves me unconditionally, so much that He sent His son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for my sins. And what did I do to deserve this? Nothing. But what do I gain? Eternal life. If this isn’t love, then I don’t know what is. I know that I am not worthy of this gift of everlasting life. I’m a sinner. I’m not perfect. But, now I’m changed (and still am changing). Now, I am a new creation.

This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. - 1 John 4:10 ♥

God loves me. God loves you. This is love.

this is love

2011-02-11T17:10:00.002+08:00

the right side up

2011-02-08T10:01:00.001+08:00

Have a great week ahead people.

Whatever happens, remember to keep smiling.

Life is too short for frowns!

Endless Possibilities

2011-02-02T00:15:00.001+08:00

Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'!

- Audrey Hepburn

Oh, Hello February! :) I am somewhat happy that January has passed and we're moving forward into this year. I still write the year as 2010 instead of 2011 sometimes. January felt like a very long month and sometimes I thought that it just wouldn't end. Other times, I got it confused with December.

My light and easy school schedule has got me thinking that I'm still on holiday. It's been a real struggle to start on assignments and thesis. It's chinese new year break and I'm still talking about assignments and thesis. I must be feeling really guilty. But not guilty enough to do my work.

Today, I went shopping with family and I bought 3 pairs of shoes. Oh, the joy. :) It was really spontaneous because in a way I wasn't looking really hard for shoes that fit me, they just did. I lost a pair of sport shoes end last year because it got stolen from my house and now I have 3 pairs in return. Talk about blessings in disguise.

Chinese New Year is tomorrow and I wish all of you a very joyous time with family and friends. Please be safe on the road and do enjoy the mouthwatering cookies! :)

Classic

2011-02-01T12:07:00.001+08:00

MK, I thought of you when I watched this. Hope you'll enjoy it as much as I did! (:

feel your ♥ beat

2011-01-30T21:20:00.001+08:00

pucker up

It's another Sunday and I just wanted to share this picture with all of you because it's so adorable! :) It's going to be a long week for me. Though I'm on holiday, my mind is constantly thinking about assignments and thesis. I've been moving from one activity to another but I feel like I'm not heading anywhere. Ah, priorities, priorities. Oh well, I know what I need to do it's just that I have to figure out how to do it and do it. It'll be okay, I promise myself.

It's been raining since 4a.m. but it's only a drizzle now. I'm quite surprised that I actually liked this wet wet day because I'm normally more of a sunny day person. But today it was so peaceful, calming and cooling and it made me happy. Here's to a good week ahead, everybody. May it be cheery and God bless! :)

You should know that...

2011-01-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

The best things in life aren't things

- Art BuchWald

Maybe tomorrow

2011-01-26T16:57:00.006+08:00

Today is not my day. I woke up feeling as though I didn't get enough sleep but in actual fact I slept for almost nine hours. I must learn to sleep earlier. It's a day off from classes but it hasn't really been fruitful. I'm not inspired to design a logo for my Communication Department. Today I feel like a failure. I really do, though not a total failure. I wonder when can we have a common understanding. Are we really that different? I wonder where I went wrong. I am confused. I am lost. My head has been pounding since morning and all I really want to do is sleep. I can't wait for the night so that I can crawl into bed and escape life for a bit. Oh, life... you are still wonderful nonetheless.

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Keep Breathing

2011-01-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

When life gets tough, keep breathing. When heart aches, keep breathing. When in doubt, keep breathing. Oh, what a week. I am glad it's over and the new week starts in less than two hours time. It's been a whirlwind of emotions and I'm more than relieved that I was able to pull through and not dwell in self-pity and those negative emotions that comes along with it. I just keep breathing.

There is so much that I want to write and say. But after all is said and done, all I really want to say is that I love you. I love you. ♥

God is good. He has always been good and always will be. :) I've been reading 'Is Life Worth Living?' by Dr Chew Weng Chee; Senior Pastor of SIBKL, and well it has been a very good read so far. In this book he writes and expounds on the book of Ecclesiastes. So, is life worth living? I myself have come across this question numerous times in my life. And my answer is yes, life is worth living if you know what and/or who you're living for. If not, everything becomes meaningless; a chasing after the wind.

I cut my hair this week. Just the fringe. Cut it straight to ~~look~~ feel more chinese this chinese new year (or maybe it's to make up for my incompetency of speaking my mother tongue). Well, mom has been calling me Cleopatra ever since I got this hair cut. So, I guess I don't look more chinese afterall. After getting this cut, I realized a few other friends got it too. Now I wish I didn't cut it. But, it's all for chinese new year. ;) I really feel as though I am wearing a wig sometimes.

There are times that I wished that I was an actor. Sometimes a dancer. Speaking of dance, I want to pick up dancing. Hopefully, this year. If not, in this lifetime. Sometimes I still regret telling my mom that I didn't want to take up ballet when in actual fact I really really wanted to learn ballet when I was 5 or 6. I don't know what was wrong with me when I was younger. Anyone out there who wants to be my teacher now? Or maybe tell me where I should go to sign up for classes? I don't want to do ballroom, and all that cha-cha-cha. I want to dance to pop songs or something like that. Anyone want to join me? Call me. Hehe. It'll be fun!

Joy with art & craft

2011-01-17T21:17:00.004+08:00

Working with colour papers, blade, pens, markers and glue is very therapeutic. It keeps me focused and relaxed at the same time. And it makes me happy when I'm done with whatever I'm doing. :)

I'm gonna have a short five day break this week starting from Wednesday because Thursday is a public holiday for Thaipusam. I really have to get started on my thesis and assignments. I hope to get out of this holiday mood as soon as possible. It is not that good to not have homework anymore. I need to be more disciplined.

Blah

2011-01-16T22:58:00.001+08:00

some days you just feel so blah

thankfully, just some

A list of firsts and that sort..

2011-01-13T23:31:00.003+08:00

a little sugar never hurt anyone

It's still early into the new year and I am trying to recall any 'first moments' I had today.

Woke up this morning with tears in my eyes. First time I cried this year.
Had Subway for lunch. First Subway, second giant chocolate chip cookie this year. :)
First time in my entire life going to Sri Rampai pasar malam (or a least I think so).
Today it was the first time this year I wish I wasn't so stubborn.
Had my first Asam Laksa for dinner.
I couldn't understand myself today, first time this year but definitely not the last.
First time getting almost excellent results for my Communication degree. All praise to God! :)
13 assignments and presentations, 5 final exams last semester,... all worth it.
But I would never ever want to repeat that ordeal ever again.
First time I thought a serial killer was sitting at my back seat while I was driving home from class. The car had really weird tapping noise.(Ok, my imagination may seem a little too wild but I still don't know where that noise came from.)
First time leaving home without my lip balm and my lips were on fire.

It is really a wonder how much I can learn in just one day. Life reflections are essential.

♥

2011-01-12T22:47:00.001+08:00

Love conquers all. - Virgil

Bliss

2011-01-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

It's late. It's exactly 11.32p.m. right now as I begin to write this. I've been having way too many late nights for the past four weeks of holidays that has gone by and I must say that the last week was the best; it felt like the longest week among the four too.

wy leong. brian. wy lyn

Over the last week, I had a good time with some of my teenage-hood friends at Brian's farewell. Great way to start the new year eh? I guess as we grow up, people leave and people come and I believe very badly that people do finally come home. Well, hopefully.

gorgeous flowers for mom

fantastic four

Midweek, my family celebrated my beloved mommy's 56th birthday! This time, dad and brother was around to celebrate with us. It's always good to be with the whole family.

And I ended my week with the best yet food/road-trip I have ever been to. Great friends, great company, delicious food and woahh many many car rides. :) It was my first time ever in the past 21 years going to Batu Gajah and really exploring Perak. I was super happy to be back in Camerons too. When I was up there, crystal clear memories of RBS '07 (Residential Bible School) and last year's overnight stay kept running through my mind. Sweet memories. And now, I have new ones to cherish.

Well, I'm gonna be off to bed. First day of class tomorrow doesn't seem so bad after all and I'm feeling excited somehow. :)

Have a great second week of twenty eleven you all! :)

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A brand new year!

2011-01-03T00:20:00.001+08:00

and a brand new toy;
Orange, my adorable orang utan

Happy twenty eleven dear you who took time to read this. I had a pretty good new year's eve celebration with the youths from church. We barbecued, ate, drank, and was merry. The night continued on with the game of Taboo at the Naik's and I had a great time of laughter and sweet fellowship. We were so engrossed with the game that when the clock struck 12, we just said quick happy new year's greeting to each other and proceeded with our game. It is indeed good to start the new year brushing up on our vocabulary. ;)

Every year I try to set some new year's resolutions and goals. It isn't really my ritual but I remember blogging about my resolution last year and I totally failed. I didn't want to lose weight, but I did and now I am struggling to gain back the weight I need. I told my friend today that I'm slowly disappearing. It's a scary thought but I am even more determined to be in better shape and health this year. Besides that, I have other resolutions that I have made, but I won't bring them out here just yet.

I am thankful that I still have one week off before I start studying again. The holiday mood just sank in but there is only one more week to relish it. The start of the year has been great so far, and I hope that the rest of twenty eleven would be too. This year is gonna be a year of many transitions. It is all part and parcel of life and growing up. I am eager to see and experience what God has in store for me.

Uncle Jin Hau preached the new year's message today and it was a good reminder to read Ephesians again and he focused on Ephesians 5:15-20:

¹⁵ Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, ¹⁶ making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. ¹⁷ Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. ¹⁸ Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, ¹⁹ speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, ²⁰always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Have a blessed year ahead everyone! :)

Friday Blues

2010-12-31T10:31:00.000+08:00

Kota Kinabalu, Sabah

I want to catch some waves. :)

Thursday Blues

2010-12-30T10:50:00.003+08:00

Marilyn Monroe

Craving for some good read.

Julie & Julia has been good thus far.

"Please understand - I love my husband like a pig loves shit. Maybe even more." - Julie Powell

Wednesday Blues - Detached

2010-12-29T21:26:00.000+08:00

Huge Christmas tree @ The Magellan Sutera

I miss being home for Christmas;

doing all the typical (but meaningful) routine of Christmas carols,

plays, gift exchanges, enjoying the joyful + exciting atmosphere

with people who makes my world go round.

Monday Blues

2010-12-27T23:59:00.004+08:00

From Mamutik Island, Sabah

Post-beach-holiday-blues is really worse than any other Monday blues.

Arghhh.

a thousand words

2010-12-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

Ruth and I @ La-Risata, Ampang

Week one of holidays have come and gone. I have been keeping myself very occupied over the past 7 days or so since my exams ended. It started with a hair-cut, captain ball, shopping (more like window shopping), dental appointment, cleaning up closet, meet ups, sending in laptop for service, eating (lotsa ice-cream last week :D), renting movies (3 idiots, Grown Ups, Night at the Museum), lotsa TV time, appointment with optometrist, hanging out with friends at YP and church, caroling practice, and conquering 5 malls in 6 hours yesterday to look for dresses for Lesley all in the heart of KL city.

I ♥ KL.

Seriously, I had major dress brainwash yesterday. Once I got home, every time a closed my eyes, a random image of a dress flashes through my mind and they were so pretty. Makes me wish I was a fashion designer. And what more, last night I dreamt that I bought a golden dress myself.

I'm a happy girl & Hoho is checking out his ice-cream

I am pretty packed this week as well with follow up dental appointments and what nots. I want to meet up with so many people but there is only so much time. I really do hope it's possible though. Very soon we'll be celebrating the 1st day of 2011. I'm not quite sure if I am all ready to say goodbye to 2010 but I am all excited for the new year. 8)

Chocolate ice-cream is love

My brother is coming home soon and I can not wait to see him again! It's been too long and I don't want to be a single child at home anymore or at least for now. It is gonna be a happy family reunion. A happy Christmas and a happy way to end the year. 3 more weeks of holidays. Time flies when you're happy. It really does. :)

Have a blessed week ahead!

Joy of living

2010-12-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin.

Lay me down on a bed of roses.
Sink me in the river, at dawn.
Send me away with the words of a love song.
♥

I like listening to this song on the radio when I drive because it's really soothing, and it puts me in a really calm mood. I enjoy her sweet voice and I think that the song carries a very deep meaning. My friend told me that this song reminded him of me. I really wonder why but I didn't ask much.

No, I don't wish to die young and I don't really wish to be buried in satin or even to be sunk down the river when I'm gone (especially not in Malaysia for the river part. I don't like crocodiles and rubbish). But do send me away with words of a love song because love never ends and love never fails. :)

Death can be such a taboo subject, sometimes. But really, we should be talking about it because whether you like it or not, our lives here on earth are only temporary. Whether you believe in heaven, hell or neither, God or not, one day you'll be gone and you'll disappear from the face of the earth. This is something you and I know very well.

When you think or talk about death, it will naturally lead you to talking and thinking about life. Well, because you are still alive. Death makes life seem so fragile, so delicate, so precious. Don't you want to make the best out of it? I definitely do. :) Certain things can't be put off till tomorrow to be said or done because sometimes tomorrow never comes.

I can go on and on and on about this but I shall just stop here. I'm tired and beauty sleep awaits me.
Happy weekend you all! Be safe and live well. :)

Oh operator, the line is dead!

2010-12-04T23:31:00.001+08:00

I need you, I'm for you
You threw me, I caught you
Don't leave me and say that you want to find a way back
Believe me, I followed all you said...
Oh operator, the line is dead

Jason Lo

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Strength

2010-12-02T11:06:00.000+08:00

cupcakes! :)

Today, I really wish that I was stronger...in every way.

The end is near. I'll get better and better.

I thank God for a lovely family, caring friends and a blessed life!

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Lead Me

2010-11-28T20:23:00.001+08:00

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Sanctus Real - Lead Me

I can't get enough of this song. :)

Bubbly

2010-11-27T17:02:00.001+08:00

bottom view. 13 birds.

I've been thinking a lot about you for the past few weeks and I wonder why. Semesters coming to an end. Final exam starts next Saturday (4th Dec). I just got done with one more assignment, another one on the way. As I take sometime to reflect over the past semester; how crazy it has been, I thought to myself and wonder how things would have been so different if you were still around. I believe that things would have been very different.

Every time I see your friends I see an incomplete picture. But I'm glad to see them smile and laugh with each other though you are not there with them. I'm pretty sure, because of you they have become closer. Sometimes I wish I could press 'rewind' and we'll be back to January 1, 2010. I wish I had said hello. I didn't know that there wasn't a tomorrow.

I've missed you.

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Sigh

2010-11-27T12:39:00.002+08:00

Sigh

Because sometimes you just have to.

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Being faithful

2010-11-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

A beautiful sight from my window

Crazy...is the only word that I can think of the describe the last 12 weeks of this Fall semester. I'm done with eight written assignments and one presentation. I have three more written assignment and two more presentations to go.

Final exams are just a corner away and I have five exam papers to sit for in three days. That's 2-1-2 for me. First two on a Saturday, next one on a Friday and the remaining two on the next day after that, which is another Saturday. Well, I'm not complaining. I have had exams on Saturdays before. And I'm actually very thankful for the five free days I have in between to revise and study some more. :)

Be still and know that He is God.

That is probably one of the hardest thing for me to do right now. Being still before God. I know that He is God. But do I really acknowledge that He is God? Being busy is not always a bad thing. At least I'm occupied and I'm learning many things along the way (e.g.: time management, stress management, patience, etc...).

However, being busy to the extend that I cannot be still before God is bad. I find it a struggle to find time to sit, read the bible, meditate and pray daily. I do pray everyday but I get carried away with life that I'm only looking for quick fixes for everything.

But today, I made time for solitude. Listening to what God has to say to me has never been more refreshing. I pray and hope that I won't be carried away again like that.

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Be Still and Know (Steven Curtis Chapman)
Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is holy
Be still, O restless soul of mine
Bow before the Prince of peace
Let the noise and clamor cease
Be still

Be still and know that He is God
Be still and know that He is faithful
Consider all that he has done
Stand in awe and be amazed
And know that He will never change
Be still

Be Still, and know that He is God
Be Still, and know that He is God
Be Still, and know that He is God

Be Still; Be speechless

Be still and know that he is God
Be still and know he is our Father
Come rest your head upon his breast
Listen to the rhythm of his unfailing heart of love
Beating for His little ones
Calling each of us to come
Be still, Be still

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Om nom nom nom

2010-11-06T01:53:00.000+08:00

om nom nom nom; that's the way the cookie crumbles.

Time For Miracles

2010-11-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

of bajillions

2010-10-30T17:30:00.008+08:00

I have bajillion and one things running through my mind right now and a bajillion other things to do. My mind is so active that I think until my head aches and I couldn't even fall asleep for a short nap though I was sleepy. I am not progressing very much on my last communication law assignment which is due this coming Monday. I have about 8 more written assignments to complete. Gonna cut that down to 5 by the end of next week. I am stressed up yet I think somehow I'm still coping well, but it could still be a lot better.

A sweet reminder:

Psalm 28:7

The Lord is my strength and my shield;

my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.

My heart leaps for joy

and I will give thanks to him in song.

And to you and you, if you both were here right now, everything would be bajillion times better. Jolly, I refuse to go to America. I'd rather sulk until you return. But seriously, you know I'm just kidding.

I wanna be a bajillionaire.

photo taken and edited by Jeffrey Tay

Jesus, walk with me

2010-10-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

'Cause everywhere I go
Everywhere I've been
And everywhere I am going to
I only go with you

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Looking forward

2010-10-26T11:01:00.000+08:00

Langkawi

I am losing track of time and the things that needs to be done. The weeks have been zooming by one by one;

sometimes I forget to stop and think. Another six more weeks and all of this will be over and done with. I feel like a juggler. Juggling to keep everything in place and not letting any ball slip out of it's course and fall down to the ground.

I cannot wait for the next public holiday and the long weekend that comes with it! A short break from the current life is much needed.

True Colours

2010-10-21T18:25:00.005+08:00

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh, I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And darkness still inside you
Make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors,
True colors, are beautiful,
Like a rainbow.

(Ah ah ah...)

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy,
Can't remember when I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors,
True colors, are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Ah ah ah ah...

Spoken: Can't remember when I last saw you laughing

If this world makes you crazy
You've taken all you can bear
You call me up (Call me up! )
Because you know I'll be there (Know I'll be there)

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through (I see them shining through! )
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you (That's why I love you! )
So don't be afraid (Afraid) to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
I see your true colors shining through (Yeah! )
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid (Afraid) to let them show
Your true colors
True colors, true colors
True colors, are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

from the cast of Glee.

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Learning to learn

2010-10-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

I like this photo very much because:

1. Black toe nails = Glammed up for Glam Nation Tour

2. Dried up blister = Too much walking around while shopping

3. Purple slippers = from beloved boyfriend and it's super comfy too <3

My Garden

2010-10-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

My garden has altogether 12 little fishies resting in peace now. Latest edition is Taylor, the fighting fish I got for my birthday. :(

Taylor, you were beautiful.

Lip Smacker!

2010-10-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

My new lip balm.
mm... hope it taste good. ;)

thanks XY!

Rindu

2010-10-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

I ♥ you

Thank You!

2010-10-02T15:01:00.001+08:00

After a long and tiring week, what can I say? I'm still tired. Physically. I need to learn how to sleep earlier, get less distracted so easily and to be more focused. There is so much that I want to do but it's not yet the right time. I really need to start getting some work done and stop being all over the place.

I am still indeed very thankful to God for helping me through this week. I thank God for my family. After a long day out I still come back to an awesome home-cooked meal by mommy and at times I ride back with dad too. I am thankful for my friends for just being who they are. I loved the conversations I've been having throughout the past week; be it face to face, on the phone, online... It's been a joy getting to know them better and better each time we talk. And, I'm always thankful for my wonderful boyfriend who makes my life so much better.

There is just so much to be thankful for but I more often than not I do not notice it. So this week has been a very good reminder to be thankful in all circumstances because things can and will only get better. :)

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Say hello to Taylor!

2010-10-01T23:18:00.001+08:00

That's Taylor, my new pet! :) It's a fighting fish/betta splendens. This video suppose to show how choosy he is when it comes to food but I ran out of memory. Oh well, I'll try to take other vids when I'm more free. Meanwhile, just watch this one over and over again. By the way, he looks much more beautiful in real life. Blue and purple. :)

Sometimes I still call it Edward because I'm just too used to it. Edward was my first fighting fish and I had it for 1 year 3 months 1 week and 2 days. :) Hopefully I'll have Taylor for much longer.

I am very thankful to God that it is now Friday night and I definitely couldn't have gone through this week without His help. Next week is gonna get better.

Time to say goodbye to the long week and hello to the weekend! Have a great one!

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Say What?

2010-09-02T22:44:00.001+08:00

Oh my!!

a new song to sing

2010-08-31T00:22:00.003+08:00

He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.

Micah 6:8

I'll never be the same

2010-08-14T23:33:00.003+08:00

Seriously. How not to SIGH leh? (p.s: this doesn't count okay? ;P) Gosh. You're leaving tomorrow. Times like these I often wonder and ask God why did he create such a huge world? But it's a good thing too, I guess. But USA. OHIO. SIGH - for real.

I'm running out of words even before I can write much here. You know I will miss you soooooper a lot and I love you. :) You make me wish to never grow up. I love our randomness and I hope it will never end. :) God has blessed my with you and I'm forever grateful.

Now, if you too don't reply my text I wouldn't know who to compliant to. ;P

Please take care of the precious ring! I hope tomorrow will be a long day!

I LOVE YOU! :))))))

trouble is a friend

2010-08-06T21:26:00.001+08:00

oink!

It's Friday and the weekend is finally here! But after working for five days straight, I don't think two days off is enough. It's never enough. A three day weekend would be awesome.

Work has been good. I am beginning to enjoy it more now as I begin to understand more about the industry and the clients. Although things have been more stressful this week I think that it was actually kinda fun. I like the diversity of the task given to me which includes a lot of reading, writing and calling.

I'm thankful for my good supervisors and colleagues who continually teach and guide me along the way and are never self-fish. A big part to why I like my job is mainly because of the working environment. My colleagues are really nice people. :)

Apart from work, I have been itching to go shopping. I did shop last Sunday but it isn't enough. I hope tomorrow's trip would be more satisfying. :)

I'd like to say that I hate August but it's here and there's nothing I can do about it. Even if it were still July there's nothing I can do to stop August from coming. I still cannot believe it's August already! Before we know it it'll be 2011!

Polly Pocket

2010-07-26T16:18:00.005+08:00

Polly Pocket!

I remember having one set of Polly Pocket when

I was younger and I absolutely loved it.
I don't know what happened to it though.

Must have given it away with my other toys.

I don't mind having another set now.

I don't know what I'll do with it.

Perhaps this time I'll keep it for my daughter.

gembira

2010-07-15T21:37:00.001+08:00

There's something 'bout love

That breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh

It sets you free

There's something 'bout love

That tears you up

Whoa oh oh oh

You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain

It'll bring you to your knees

There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh...

But don't give up

There's something 'bout love

I do not understand the above lyrics, 'Something Bout Love' by David Archuleta (DA) but it is what I have been listening to in the office every day since I started work on Monday. I listen to FlyFm from 9.00a.m. to 5.30p.m. on a daily basis and I wonder if I will get bored of listening to it by the end of August. Local radio stations really have to buck up and play a wider variety of songs. No offence to DA, his songs really makes me more happy just listening to his voice. Anyhow, listening to the radio is definitely nicer than listening to printers and copy machines all day long.

I am currently doing my internship at a PR agency here in Damansara which is not very far away from uni. It is only day four but I have been enjoying my work. I am thankful that they actually give me work to do or not I will really be bored to death and probably will be fast asleep especially after lunch. My colleagues are friendly and kind. They make sure I have lunch everyday. :) Today, a few of us headed down to the city to eat the famous chili pan mee near Chow Kit. Tomorrow we'll be having Nando's after our staff meeting.

Oh, by the way, it has been kind of a winter wonderland at the office. First day of work was the coldest and I did not bring my sweater. Apparently they just serviced the air-cond and everyone is freezing. It was so hard to think or even type anything because my fingers were numb. Thank God for hot water dispenser and coffee! I am slowly adapting to the weather at office.

Besides that, since I started work I have somehow lost track of date and time. I cannot differentiate today from Monday because it is all the same to me. On Tuesday I thought that the next day was Thursday and today I am still thinking that tomorrow is Thursday.

So far, I have done a press release, transcribing an interview, media updating and news monitoring. Work can be tedious at time and it is also time consuming. I really wish I was smarter too. Though I enjoy my work, I think studying is so much easier. I somehow miss attending classes and I really do not enjoy staring at the computer monitor the whole day long but I do not have any choice. So it's about time I go rest my eyes.

Though I'm only suppose to work from Monday to Friday, I will be attending my first work event this Saturday. I'm kinda excited. 8)

Good night!

longest

2010-06-18T00:16:00.001+08:00

Today seemed to be the longest day ever. But it has been a good day. One with much sprinkles of happiness here and there throughout the day. I feel satisfied and happy. I've learned not to lower my expectations so that I don't get disappointed but rather to continue striving to be better.

I feel inspired. To do what I'm not sure exactly. But inspired about life. There's excitement running through me.

I've had a lot on my mind today and I wonder what God is trying to tell me.

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Bukit Tabur

2010-06-13T13:38:00.001+08:00

A view from Bukit Tabur

The dam

KL City

From a distance...

After a few hours, the air is polluted.

See that layer of black smoke?

This hike up Bukit Tabur has been one filled with many "Are we there yet?", "Hungry", "HUNGRY!", "Why isn't there a ladder?" and more. It was a good trip up and I'm glad to have finally been up there.

mess

2010-06-11T15:54:00.000+08:00

mm.. cookies.

After consuming some cookies and a glass of fruit juice, I feel much better. Refreshed. I never really thought that writing a 3000 word assignment will be this draining. Staring at the computer makes me tired altogether. Can I say that I'm half way through? Well not quite. But I'm some what there.

I'm learning to be more discipline. Learning not to let my feelings and emotions be controlled by the inevitable. I have to learn that when I set my mind to do something, I must carry it out and accomplish it. I used to be better at doing that. Must stop procrastinating. But things are always easier said than done. Even so, they're not impossible.

My mind is in a mess. Sometimes I'm still looking for a purpose for everything. At times, I just don't get it.

too deep

2010-06-09T15:37:00.002+08:00

Every once in a while, I play google pacman. And get addicted to it. Life needs more entertainment indeed. I'm in week four out of my seven week long semester. I'm currently doing my second take home test for consumer behaviour. I'll be real happy when it all ends. This is what I say every time but it never ends. Not yet at least.

I just got a call looking for Mr. Sebastian.

I'm hungry.

Majesty

2010-06-07T21:54:00.006+08:00

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

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Bad Day

2010-05-28T15:38:00.002+08:00

If you're having a bad day, then maybe watching this video can cheer you up. :)

It's not a new vid, but do enjoy!

http://www.jkweddingdance.com/

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Joy Luck

2010-05-14T11:36:00.000+08:00

I finished reading The Joy Luck Club late last night and I really enjoyed this book though it was a little hard to distinguish the many characters in the story at first. I guess reading it the second time around would make it all clearer. When I reached the last page of the book and finished reading the last sentence, I didn't want it to end. I wished it'd go on and on. However, I still think The Kitchen God's Wife was a more interesting read. Still I marvel at Amy Tan's writing. I wonder if I could ever write about my life in such detail.

Holidays are ending soon and I'm not too sure what subject I should take next semester which starts next week. The new time table isn't giving me much options and many subjects that are only offered once a year in May are clashing with each other. Does that mean I'm still gonna be in university next May? I guess so. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

I need wisdom.

sugar rush

2010-05-08T12:34:00.005+08:00

Wing Ring

Xue Ying got this wing ring for me about a month ago.

She sure knows how to surprise me. :)

The first week of holidays has come and gone just like that. Now there's only a week left and I'm still not sure how I'm gonna spend my time. So far I've watch a movie with Joyce. We watched Toy Story 1 and 2 back to back in 3D. I had a slight headache after watching the first movie but it was really good and entertaining. 8)

Kim Hwe came down from Malacca on Wednesday and we had some good time catching up. I cooked macaroni and cheese on Thursday and she helped though she doesn't like cooking. We spent one whole afternoon watching The Killers live from the Royal Albert Hall and it was awesome. I must say that their best performance for their closing act - When You Were Young. I would really really love to be at their concert. It'd be a dream come true.

I don't have much plans for the coming week but I don't want the holidays to end. They're just so relaxing -napping, reading, walking, talking and Glee-ing every now and then. Hopefully, next week there will be some shopping and a sleepover.

Aww

2010-04-24T17:14:00.001+08:00

Aww...

♥

Earth Day

2010-04-22T11:59:00.008+08:00

Earth Day 2010!

It's Earth Day! So what can you do today to make Earth a better place to live in?

Use public transport, car pool, walk, cycle or better still if you really don't have the need to go anywhere stay at home!
Recycle - paper, plastic, glass. It isn't very hard.
Reduce - Turn off home appliances when not in use. Say no to plastic bags (unless you really need one), or bring your own shopping bag. In China (and in other countries as well), people carry their own plastic bags because they charge 20 cents for one.
Reuse - Use reusable water bottle, reuse plastic bags, reuse old paper for rough work and solving math solutions and so on.
Hang out your clothes and not use the dryer when the sun is out.
Get off the computer when you don't need to use it. Guess that's what I'm gonna do now.

You can find more suggestions here!

Happy Earth Day and I hope Earth will still be a wonderful place to live in for my children and their children and beyond! We can make a difference.

Munch

2010-04-21T18:46:00.011+08:00

heart-shaped doughnuts

I am hungry and I feel like eating some lovely tasty doughnuts. Oh, when I'm hungry I crave for almost everything and I think we all do. Tim Tams have been curing my late night craving and I only have one more piece left. I wonder what to munch on next. I think I munch more lately and it's good. :) Food and books go well together now that I'm preparing for finals.

I stumbled upon jango.com yesterday and it's good to be able to listen to the tunes I've been missing out on since I've stopped downloading (approx. 2 years ago) and deleted all the songs I've downloaded. You just have to create a playlist on jango and then they play you random songs from the artiste you've selected. It's nice to hear old tunes like Breakfast at Tiffany's by Deep Blue Something again.

And then I remembered all the older songs I used to like and search them up on YouTube. Ahh, Dishwalla and Low Millions. It makes me happy listening to them.

Oh, finals is on Moonday! :O

Things that touch my heart, soul and mind

♥

Blank

Start Over

Just a dream

Oh, hello!

Sometimes

One word: Vote!

What coffee does to you

Disorientated

I spy with my little eye - Part Two

I spy with my little eye - Part One

to you, my friend

thank God for holidays

take on life

to the moon and back

Friendships

little delights

Last Week

by and by

Conversations

Majesty

Depth

my Creator

Toothless

Stranger

pocket full of sunshine

Closure

Awakening

Daydream

gratitude

Dreams

Travis - Turn

it's true

Precious jewels

103rd minute

Julie & Julia

Reasons

Break Away

Waterballoons

Sprinkles

a fresh s(tart)!

Move Along

Better than silver or gold

Wandering

Love & Life

this is love

the right side up

Endless Possibilities

Classic

feel your ♥ beat

You should know that...

Maybe tomorrow

Keep Breathing

Joy with art & craft

Blah

A list of firsts and that sort..

♥

Bliss

A brand new year!

Friday Blues

Thursday Blues

Wednesday Blues - Detached

Monday Blues

a thousand words

Joy of living

If I die young, bury me in satin.

Lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in the river, at dawn. Send me away with the words of a love song. ♥

Oh operator, the line is dead!

Strength

Lead Me

Bubbly

Sigh

Being faithful

Om nom nom nom

Time For Miracles

of bajillions

Jesus, walk with me

Looking forward

True Colours

Lay me down on a bed of roses.
Sink me in the river, at dawn.
Send me away with the words of a love song.
♥